In my memory, I always picture my grandmother cooking. She would always ask us how we were by inquiring whether we had eaten or not. My Granny had lived under poverty and ensuring that her loved ones had a full stomach was her way to show her love. Maybe, this is why food has played an important role in my life, a core role during my personal search of identity.
All this started when my aunt told me that I was like a banana – yellow on the outside, white on the inside. What she meant was that after migrating to Spain with my parents when I was 11 months old, driven by the European dream, I lost my yellowness. From this point, people started asking me if I was gay or straight, questioning both my sexuality and my gender—my space within the dissident spaces. In English-speaking countries, for instance, the expressions sticky rice, rice queen and potato queen refer to the preferences of gay men and their racist fetish relationship towards Asian bodies, although it may be extrapolated to the whole racialized community. Food as an element related to my identity led me to Steamed Ginseng Pork Heart – a response to the way I live together with other bodies and how the different oppressions that go through my body may live together. How can we live together in a racist, cis-heteropatriarchal, sexist, ableist, and cis- heteronormative society; and how do these elements exercise violence towards our bodies?
This cartography not only explores the way we live together in an offline space, but also in the online spaces; how the virtual space may turn into a tool of political resistance that, in turn, joins other non- hegemonic bodies and forge alliances. Thank you and enjoy your meal, Granny.